you find yourself at a cross road, and you’re asked to choose between the life that you want and the life that your inner demons are trying to impose on you.
And after several attempts to take the right path, somehow they’ve always taken over and managed to get you back where they want you to be: back at square one, stuck, unhappy, and unfulfilled.
But somehow, after so many times, it gets to the point where you’ve had enough. Where you’ve had enough of settling. Where you’ve had enough of feeling shitty about where you are in your life. When you’ve had enough of wishing things were better. When you’re finally ready to take things into your own hands.
And that’s when you start fighting. That’s when you start becoming relentless. That’s when things really start to change. That’s the turning point we’re all searching for.
But it has to come from within. You have to really, and wholeheartedly want to fight for your dreams in order for this newfound motivation to last. The absence of that pure, inner desire is what caused you to take 3 steps back after taking 2 steps forward before.
“Anything I haven’t yet accomplished, I simply haven’t wanted bad enough” - Unknown
The most important thing is that your heart is in it. That’s what will push you through all the hurdles that set you back before.
Once you have that, the only thing that can stop you is yourself.
“By My Side” | Original
I started writing a new tune today! Just finished up the chorus. Take a listen! :)
So I thank you for loving me for who I am
and I thank you for being there when I needed a friend
and I pray that you’ll stay with me
Cause as long as you’re near,
I won’t be afraid
No there’s nothing to fear
As long as you’re here
by my side
An attraction to the physical is finite. There are only so many joys one body can offer.
But an attraction to the mind and it’s many intangible treasures buried deep within?
That’s the kind that lasts.
Because while a beautiful body withers and fades over time, a beautiful mind is continuously growing and being nurtured, becoming more and more beautiful every day.
And when the pleasures of the body have long gone, the treasures of the mind will remain, forever waiting to be discovered by your sweet, unyielding curiosity and longing to know more.
But my symptoms stem far from the usual
runny nose, dry cough, and sore throat
I’m sick with a longing;
A longing to express
But I can’t seem to find my way under these
tribulations and stress
With inspiration worn thin,
My creativity wheezes like a cough,
And I need my Robitussin
Find me my cure, an inspiration so pure
So that even in this block of creativity
Man, I’m sick
Sick of this drought in my mind
I need inspiration to rain down
And bring warmth and sunshine
My ideas are thirsty
And a drink from your well is my medicine
Hopefully, I can get well soon
I'm semi lactose. So like, I can't drink milk by itself. I'd have to eat it with like cereal or something.
oohhhhh, so what happens if you drink milk? Does it just make you feel sick?
I crawl into my bed in fetal positon and feel like imma die
read something that nearly made you break down all of a sudden?
A friend of mine just sent me a lovely message, and I almost burst into tears in front of the nice lady sitting across from me on the train right now. LOLOL.
God is good. When I need a reason to smile, He reminds me that I have some amazing people in my life, and then all my troubles melt away and seem minuscule.
I got a taste of what I’ve been yearning for. It was sweet, like the most succulent fruit in the world. And refreshing, like a drink of water after a long and painful thirst.
“Maybe she’s different,” I thought.
But before I knew it, the all too familiar bitter after taste of unrequited love poisoned my mouth once again, and I realized I was chasing something I couldn’t have. Like a donkey chasing a carrot. Always before my eyes, but no matter how much I pursued you, you would always be out of my reach.
And here I am again. Battered and bruised far longer than I would’ve liked.
Being best friends with Unrequited Love is a lonely experience.
The hidden gems. The diamonds in the rough. The ones who have gone unheard, unseen,and unnoticed.
And I want to show them off to the world.
If there’s one thing I want to accomplish in my lifetime, it’s to be able to do that for artists. One day I’ll have that power. Too many times have I met incredibly talented artists who just weren’t getting the attention they deserved, and I want to be able to change that.
I found it really upsetting to hear that these words were said to a very dear friend of mine recently.
Personally, as an artist, I believe that family and friends are the backbone and center of all that we do. Without their undying love and support for what I do, I would lack the motivation and inspiration to work hard every day to bring myself closer and closer to my goals.
As with anyone else who’s on their grind knows, every day is a constant struggle for balance. Between work, family, friends, and sometimes even school. We’re often forced to sacrifice time spent with loved ones in order to ensure that we’re putting only our best into the work that we do. As they say, anything worth fighting for requires an incredible amount of time, patience, handwork and sacrifice to achieve.
So for someone to come along and tell us that we don’t have time for them anymore, or that we’re “too cool for them”, it can hit us pretty hard. After all the effort we put into doing well and trying to balance enough time between everything, it can make us feel like it’s still not enough. Hearing things like that can be deeply damaging, especially coming from someone who’s supposed to be our friend.
To those of you reading, if you know anyone that you don’t see that often anymore because they’re busy with their work, remember this:
Though your time with them may be limited, never let yourself believe for one second that they care any less about you. The times you share with them, for however short those moments may be, are precious to them because they’re so limited. Love them, support them, and show them that you’re behind them %100, because your love and support is the driving force behind all that they do.
To my fellow artists:
Keep working hard. Never let yourself settle for anything less than going above and beyond your wildest dreams. There will be times when negativity may come your way, but you must always find a way to completely shut it out. Rid yourself of it. Take away it’s power. See it as an obstacle to overcome. Let it be a test of your dedication. Don’t bother with people who tell you that you don’t have time for them anymore, because your true friends will understand the sacrifice that you are making. Negative people will help open your eyes to who’s really there for you, and in that process, these negative people will be stripped away from your life till you are only left and surrounded by the people who truly matter. Never take for granted an opportunity to tell these people that you love them. No matter how far you may go in your career, they will always be the ones who have been there for you since the beginning. Love them, and hold them near and dear to your heart. Make them proud.
Even if you think you’re terrible at something, if it’s something you really want, don’t give up. With hard work, persistence, and determination, you’ll be able to go above and beyond where you need to be if you wanted to. And once you get there, you’ll always be grateful for the day when you decided you weren’t going to give up.
Happy Happy Birthday to My dearest Friend BRIAN DUBLIN!
Happy Happy Birthday Love! You are freakin 20 now, done with the teens. I hope you have a wonderful day!!!!!!
I still can’t believe that We’ve only known each other for less than 2 years but it feels so much longer than that. I find the story of how we crossed paths so many times before until we formally met so funny. and it is crazy how we remember those exact same moments. It was like we were meant to become friends along the way. =]
I will not forget the long haired guy standing next to Amiel and the same guy who sat three people away from me while we were watching AJ Rafael in Berkeley. And of course I will not I will not forget the person who opened a car door to my face. I will never forget the guy who catches my weird facial expressions and laughs at them. I will never forget the guy who catches my kawawa face. And most of all I will not forget the guy who helped proved to me that when people don’t work out at being more than just friends that they can remain friends even close friends with no feeling involved towards each other. *The exception.
I love you B! Have a happy happy birthday! I’m sorry I can’t make it today but I was nice to see you this past Friday and chill for a bit. Hope to see you soon! =]
<3 Love you Jingkie! So many memories in these pictures. :’)
The feeling of overwhelming happiness you’re consumed with when you cry tears of joy is one of the most amazing feelings in the world. Tears don’t just come when you’re at your lowest of lows. They’re also there when you’re at your happiest.
It’s insane how many blessings have come my way in just one year. I’ve encountered so many new, and exciting opportunities that have given me reason to be excited to wake up every morning, ready for my day. I’ve learned a handful of invaluable lessons along the way, and I’ve grown so much from it all. I’ve been blessed with an amazing group of friends whom I now consider my family. Not to mention, I have two of the greatest parents ever, and a family that I know loves me very much.
To all of my loved ones,
You have all enriched my life in ways you may not even realize. You fill my days with inspiration, motivation, life lessons, smiles, laughter, and above all else, an overwhelming feeling of happiness. You know I tell you this every chance that I get, but I love and appreciate every single one of you. My 20th birthday is only a few days away, and I’ve already been blessed with the the greatest gift of all. All of you. You guys are my gift, and no present will ever top that. I already have all that I need.